4:36 Am for the second day in a row....

But at least I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I am scheduled to go to the hospital at 6 this morning to start an induction. I had to be induced with the other two girls, so this really isn't new news to me! I had a doctors appointment yesterday and I am basically at a 4! Wahoo!! I'm hoping things go fast today!

Sweet new little girl, I can not wait to see you. Hold you. Kiss you. You mean so much to me and our family already that I can not imagine how this love for you will grow. However, it will! Your sisters CAN NOT wait to see you. And they are going to be the best sisters ever. I am so excited about the friendship the 3 of you will have. I see it being something very similar to what I have with my sisters; which is amazing! Your dad and I love you and thrilled that you chose to come to our family! We love you so much! I feel truly blessed to be your mother! THIS is what being a mom is all about!!!!

4:36 AM

I can't sleep. I have been up since 3:14. And I am just waiting. Waiting to have this baby. My mom is here. The girls room is finished. The babies room is finished. My room is finished. I can officially have her now! But no, she is taking her time. Which is fine. Our home teachers came over today and talked about patience. HA! Great timing!!! I'm trying!

Sweet new baby, I can't wait to see you. Please come soon! I love you!

HOLY COW.....

So.... I'm at a 3. YIKES!!!!!!!!!! I'm really am about to have our 3rd baby. And I am kind of in freak out mode. My due date isn't until June 1, which happens to be 11 days from today. I have never gone early. I had to be induced with both of the girls. I really don't think I am going to make it till then. I hope I can make it until Sunday, because my mom will be here!

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

UGH.....

I don't know what my deal is. I haven't been a very good mom today. In fact I would go as far to say I haven't been a very good mom the past couple of weeks. And I'm not sure what my deal is. I mean, I am sure (hope) it is a combination of things. I'm 38 weeks pregnant. I am tired. I have ZERO energy. There are so many things that I want to get done before we have this little baby, but am starting to give up on the list. Not because they don't need to be done. Because I don't want to do them! And I want to be a good mom. I want to have patience. I want to be kind and loving and understanding. And I think for the most part I am. Just not now. But it makes me really concerned that the last few weeks of just having 2 girls at home aren't fun for anyone. They are really sweet girls. And they do love me so so much. And I love them too. So soo much! I need to show them that. Cause I'm not sure anyone is feeling the love right now.

The thing is. I really have nothing to complain about. I have a wonderful husband who loves me and would really give the world to me. There are ladies out there that don't have that. And that makes me sad. I have 2 beautiful daughters that love me. So so much (in their words)! I am about to have our 3 daughter, and if I might say so my self.... she too will be beautiful! I have a roof over head, food in my pantry and family on the way to help when we have this baby. So really what is my deal?

Lets say its hormones!

We are still here....

I'm still just cooking this baby and trying to stay cool. We are working hard on getting this house put together before bebe#3 gets here. I have 4 weeks left!! On another note, we are so proud of Josh! He finished and turned in his research project. This is something he has been working on since 1st year of residency. He rocks!!! Way to go babe!!

Talent Show

2nd Annual Primary Talent Show!!! Since it is Christmas year 'round the Smith house, the girls wanted to sing Angels we have heard on High. I was the MC, so they had already started singing before I could get to my camera, but I got most of it.

They also did a little dancing!

My 2 favorite Girls

FOR NOW!!!!